Wishful thinking OMGPUNLULZ!

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So already I am thinking about what to ask my parents for Eid/Christmas (as I am half Palestinian/Lebanese and half French/Irish) I get to celebrate both holidays. SCORExCORE!!!!!11one

Anyway, some things include

1. Video games
-Final Fantasy XII
-Call of Duty
-Metal Gear Solid 4
-Halo 4
-Guitar Hero/Rock Band

2. Black leather gloves. They're just so slick and international-spy reminiscent.

3. Women's oxford shoes. Been wanting some for a while. I'm sure I'd have better luck finding them on my own though.

4. Kitten. Man. I want one.

5. A simple, modern, practical watch

6. Chance perfume. Or one of equal or greater greatness.

7. $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

8. Better bedspread.

9. Extremely soft, warm, and cozy sweat pants

10. Bookstore gift card

11. Plane tickets to New freaking York



I'm a simple fellow.

Will sulk for $$$

Soo
This week's been interesting. :)
I could get used to this.
It really made me feel good when me and a friend were waiting on another in the bathroom right after we had gotten out of English when our teacher comes out of the classroom and we talk about what we're doing next and she asks "Did you all know each other before this class?" And we say no and she was like "wow, that's great!" kinda stupid, but it warmed my heart <3

lol. sorry for my gayness.
ANYWAY.

art is getting hella stressful. why'd she spring all these freakin perspective drawings on us last minute? She gave us 4 and I have only 2 done. The easiest ones, too. The glorious part of all this is that she hasn't given us our Final drawing. The big kahoona. The one she's giving us freakin 2 weeks to complete. It's ominous. Because first I suck at perspective. Second...I'm getting lazy.

I'd really like to go thrifting. Buffalo exchange is calling my naaaaaame.

Poor? Not me.

Honey I don't want
those
money woes.
I'll marry Paul
or Dave
or Rob
or Peter,
So I can buy my clothes
at Saks
Fifth Avenue..

Okay, I'm not a big musical person. I'd rather get my teeth pulled than sit through Rent. Some are better than others.

But man, today I got a song from the musical Thoroughly Modern Milly stuck in my head. I was in the orchestra for it my senior year and those songs have a tendency to burst out of me unprovoked. My cd is scratched though :(

Oooh! I was so disapointed when the song Gimme Gimme didn't work on my cd, but I just found the original Sutton Foster singing it on Youtube on the Rosie O'Donel show. Here go.

Well, today was a bit better at least. Better than I first thought. An unexpected person kind of annoyed me though. Its happened before. I just don't think they realize the power of words, and I'm a sensitive mutha. A nice hobby of mine is looking up etymologies. It is amazing I haven't met any guys.


edit://I KNEW IT! I knew Sutton Foster looked familiar! God, what a small world. She was in 3 episodes of Flight of the Concords. She played Brett's new-found girlfriend Coco.

poast

hello

this past week was extremely busy and hectic. So many tests and quizzes and presentations and things due. but that's just academically.

socially, its been hectic as well. i want to transfer already. i thought college would be better. its really just more of the same things and people. god. and i blame myself for it. i attract this gayness.

i don't have grace when it comes to social interactions. i'm still pretty unlearned and brash.

anyway...i've been realizing there's shopping to be done. not nearly enough sweaters and warm things in my closet. and not nearly enough money to pay for anything. i hate owing people stuff. makes me feel inadequet.

whatever. this post is mainly to ventilate. just thinking about school tomorrow makes me want to go home.

edit:// i feel much better. i got my schedule for next semester partly in order now, so it's good. that's one thing that was bothering me. man. note to self: when feeling down, run. literally. i know exercising releases brain chemicals but i always forget to take advantage. hachacha

miss listless

So it sort of amazes me what people will do solely for attention. I guess it shouldn't surprise me...but god, it's still a little shocking at first. I mean you'd hope people'd have limits. Goes to show how fallible humans are able to become. GAY.

Anyway. I don't know. I can't think right. Everyone's so double-sided.

Uh...okay. So. I really hope I still get to go to New York City this December. I've had my heart set for a little while now. It'd be cool to meet some celebrities, especially infamous ones.

I'm being sort of allusive there. you can't tell.

man. i wish i had my own little room of gratuitous praise. it seems like some people have freakin like..2 of them.

everything is getting on my nerves right now. my back. this lighting. this new monitor. my pc. with its never-ending oscillation and high-pitched and audible frequencies. a person could go out of their mind.

plus, i should be reviewing terms of stratification for an exam tomorrow. effing...life. making me do stuff.
and my mom won't shut up about a pin number i'm supposed to have. i'm going to start making numbers up to just appease her if she doesn't lemme alone. cant she see i'm brooding? goshhhhhh.

man its just..i don't know. there's been a little knot in my brain recently that i need to untangle. but its like the thing is covered in tiny spikes. eventually i'll need to deal and figure this thing out, but right now i don't feel up to all that elbow grease. i like all this metaphorical speak. hahaa.

i just need to forget. or more like, get over. it's just dumb.

man. i need a new chair. maybe icecream. but definitely a chair.
you i'll see

okayy

today was basically step-on-toes and awkward-silences day.
i either offended someone inadvertently or came off as arrogant.

i feel like i come off as arrogant a lot and i realize it when i do, and have come to realize its so that i can cover up how really self-conscious i am. so i'm trying to change.
maybe today is the day all the horrible characteristics surface and then go out of my system. hopefully.

my school newspaper is written by people who are barely suited to distribute the news rather than write it. i saw a bajillion (not really) errors in their take on election coverage this morning, and all i did was flip back and fourth between CNBC, comedy central, and NBC all last night. I feel comedy central did the best in announcing the presidency though: during a spiel by colbert on his hope for mccain's victory, john stewart quietly says "i'm sorry to interrupt you, stephen, but barak obama is now the confirmed president of the united states." or something like that. it was cool. got your blood pumping. and man, can that obamammamama speak.

what's really cool is that he'll be inaugurated on my youngest sister's birthday, Jan. 20th. that's pretty neato for her!

anyway. these next two days should be fun-filled. tomorrow charlie murphy is coming to uta and i have a ticket! i'm still hesitant and i don't really expect much, but whatever. it's a show.

then on friday is deerhoof! yaaaaaaaaaay. i like their milk man album the best right now. :D

okay, well i hope you all have good dayz and stuffz.
l8s

helloo

so
like
the day after my last post, i had a very good day
i'm finally making friends!
its going to make it all the more sad when i transfer to UT though
now i think i can appreciate how my friend tj felt when he transfered, maybe.
idk. i'll just stick to speaking for myself haha. i always end up backtracking when i speak for others. i should learn.

haha. yeah. i hope it stays this way at least.
:]

i've been wanting to get more active lately. i would also like to start volunteering but i'm not sure how to go about doing that yet with my campus.

hmmm, my cousin farah had a halloweeen party! it was pretty bumpin'.

mmm oh yeah.

i am sooooooo so so excited for december. 12 - 17th in new york citayyyy. cannot wait. i'm sure i'm idealizing it more that it will actually be, but whatever. haha. i really can't wait for the nbc studio tour. maybe i'll see an snl cast member or two! eeeeeeeeee.
i need to also not look like a tourist. i heard that you get better treatment from ppl that way. haha. i really can't wait. i'm making an itenerary for the trip. its harder than i figured it to be.

i'm even considering watching home alone 2: lost in new york for some research or whatever. yeah i'm a huge nerd. with me, when i get into something, i delve into it deep for a few days and then i forget about it for a while. but with december right around the corner i don't think i'll be able to forget about it haha. man. SO can't wait.

p.s. that's me trying to dance as a japanese school girl